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Esther Tay
Queenstown Baptist Church
Soar Fellowship
Dawn Fellowship
NP Business Studies
Phillippians 4: 6-7
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Friday, July 25, 2008
frustrated..
i am so tired.
so far, this week isn't a good week at all..
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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
the internal debate..
ok. i know. considering that i managed to rest and work at a slower pace last week, and it's only tuesday, i shld still be feeling "re-charged"... but, im already feeling a little drained. and it feels like my "angel" and "devil" are debating within my mind...
devil: give up la, just forget abt sch work..
angel: don't give up so easily. you know you can do it..
devil: why care so much? do badly then do badly lor, anyhow do also can. nvm one..
angel: future ah, darling, FUTURE.. and, you want to regret/be depress when you see the bad results meh? forgotten alr ah??
devil: aiyah. you're only in poly... still got chance.. at most, retake lor, scared what?
angel: you know yourself la ah.. retake? RETAKE?! YOU SURE??? and well, you know you can get through this no matter how tiring or scary it may seem.. it's only a few more weeks and then you can have your break already. ANDDDD, you know that God is here for you.. so don't give uppppppp!
and of cos.. the "angel" wins. it always wins. how to not win right? as if i will let the "devil" win like that.. hahaha.
i will persevere!
God, grant me strength plssss. thank You!
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
"don't just stop at the shore, but swim out into the sea"
the Go Forth public message tonight is quite good. i am reminded once again, that age/gifts/talents is not a problem, and although we may not know what our next step will be, we just need to have faith in God and trust in Him that He will lead us.
我愿奉献我一生
来宣扬称颂祢的恩典
我有了祢已别无所求
只求祢来使用我
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Thursday, July 17, 2008
listen..
been going for the Go Forth Mission Conference for the past 2 nights. the speaker for the past 2 nights is Rev. Morley Lee. His sermons are really good. some of the things he say can make you laugh out loud, some can make you think deeper and some, can make you tear.. like tonight's msg... there are some parts that really struck a chord in my heart..
here are some points mentioned that are a little food-for-thought..
不要错把 "部分" 当 "整体"
Don't mistakenly assume that a "part" as a "whole picture"
不要错把 "过程" 当 "结局"
Don't mistakenly assume that the "journey/process" is "the end"
im not really sure how to explain these 2 sentences in words as different people interpret it differently. i shall just leave it here as it is.. and let you think about it..
guide me as You find me
teach me as You lead me
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Monday, July 14, 2008
food-for-thought
had a jc/poly/uni students dinner gathering at uncle daniel's house ytd. as always, aunty jane takes good care of all of us .. with her good food. haha. the sharing by uncle daniel is rewarding. a little food-for-thought.
"it isn't about what the church can do for you, but what you can do for the church."
true indeed. it's how we can use the gifts that God has given to us, to serve Him, serve in the church, spread His word and glorify Him.
spend the night at carmen's house as we were going to the airport early in the morning to send yuexing off. slept around 12+am. woke up at 6am. super tired, but worth the while. im missing you already yx! reached home around 9+ .. used the laptop for awhile. but couldn't stand it anymore.. K.Oed from 11+ all the way to 3+pm. tired...
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Saturday, July 12, 2008
God's grace...
it's been a crazy week.
i think it's my first time staying in school till abt 10.30pm for project. but i guess that's what you do when you realised only a day before the actual presentation that your presentation content is a little off-track... have also been staying up till the early hours of the morning for the past few days.. my mood has also been going up and down..
thank God that i've finished some of the presentations alr.. left SM group project presentation, IS-WISP presentation, IS-DPM presentation and (FYP) integrated project presentation.
for now, i get to rest for a week, before i start my "battle" again.
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Monday, July 07, 2008
rollercoaster
headaches are irritating.
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Friday, July 04, 2008
what a nerve wrecking week...
finally.
IBS solution selling call is over. have not been slping well for the past wk because of this call.. well, as the saying goes "Do your best and God will do the rest" thank You, God (: hard work pays off..
well, one load of my shoulder... left quite a few more.. hahaha.
then i guess it will be the exams. thank God it's only 2 papers.
thank You, for bringing me through..
for listening to my prayers and calming me down when i feared.
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Monday, June 30, 2008
my head feels as if it weighs a ton...
too many things to do, too little time.
my body is not agreeing with me.
i thought i was ok alr, but now, it seems the other way.
this, is not good. bad timing...
(not that there is any good timing to fall sick or feel uncomfortable/terrible/whatever.. but just not now.. when there's so many things to do...)
pray okay? thanks.
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Thursday, June 26, 2008
just a few thoughts..
well just a few things la. haha.
1st. the period of one week when my family was overseas.. and i was "home alone"
thank God for friends and family. im indeed very blessed. when i thought i would be alone.. (esp. at night! and raining somemore!) God places these people around me (: really, i feel so loved. ha! there are times when i missed my parents alot (and like how i freaked out when i heard abt the japan earthquake news.. thank God my family and relatives were safe!) but i guess these people around me makes things better haha :D
2nd. TaoRong's & Xue'er's Wedding
since last year, she was telling me abt it.. and now, finally the day has come. i've no idea why, but im reallllllllllly happy for the 2 of them. i've never felt that happy for all the weddings that i've been to before (rly. no kidding). i guess cos xue'er is sort of like a sister to me? haha.
reached there in the morning and started to practice for the special item. in between we were taking photos here and there. haha. after the whole trial run ended, we went to have a group prayer and then soon, the pple started streaming in. did ushering and then the wedding commenced. the whole ceremony is rly sweet and nice. a few funny moments, tearful ones too (tears of joy & appreciation)..
Da Die and Da Ma were there also. i rly missed them so much (and the children at grace home too). chatted with them quite abit.. and at the end of the wedding, i had to go alr. so i told them that hopefully, i can go and visit them at grace home soon, if possible, end of this year.. but i think most likely it'll be next year after i graduate.. and they said "good, good. see you soon." (i also hope i get to see them soon... haha)
3rd. shanghai study trip
overall, i've learnt quite a fair bit during this trip. it's tiring too.. having to wake up early in the morning to visit companies and all that till at night. the food is alright la. but after eating the same stuff for consecutive 2 days (breakfast, lunch & dinner).. you would not be looking forward to the meals anymore for the next few days. haha. yet i must say, there are some meals that are quite nice. like when the meal that the managing director of 1 company treated us to. very good meal but tooooo much food. when we finished eating, we looked as if we have yet to start. haha! managed to visit a wide range of organisations. cosmetics company, plastic engineering company, pump manufacturing company, even the shanghai singapore international school. the kids are super cute!
there are a few places that we went to for sightseeing/visitation. e.g. the Bund (shanghai tan), Jin Mao Observatory Tower, museum, etc.. the traffic there is terrible. when you're crossing the road, it has the feeling of "either you make it or you don't" haha. the zebra crossing and traffic lights are for show only. the first few times when we cross the road, we're like super scared .. and screamed a little, but after that we got used to it alr. haha.
the weather there has been nice too. cooler than singapore, but not to the extend that you need a jacket. maybe only at night i guess.. only on the last day, the weather was hot. and then..i started to have sore throat. and predictably, when i reached back home in spore, haha. im down alr. the sore throat, and flu is here. what a nice timing.. just nice school reopened too. (see the pattern here? start sch = fall sick. as always. haha)
and now. back to sch already. the engine has started and the train is continuing on its "crazy" journey again.. and there's a mountain of assignments/presentations/projects in front of me, beckoning my attention when im trying to ignore it ha.ha. aiis. reality. reality..
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Monday, June 09, 2008
so far, so loved. God is good!
been "home alone" for abt 3 days now. well.. also not exactly la since ive been staying over at other pple's hse since saturday night. tonight, i'm staying over at my grandma's hse.
i thought i'll be so lonely (especially during the night) during the whole week. who knows. it turned out to be the opposite. there are some pple who cares. knowing that im home alone, they'll ask me if i want to stayover at their hse, if i wanna follow them out, go to their hse for dinner, etc.. (: i feel super loved. God is so! goooodddd to me :D
so far, so loved. haha ((:
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Thursday, June 05, 2008
home alone... soon
my one and only common test paper - MRSH, is over tdy. but there isn't any feeling of "yay, common test is over." maybe cos there are still many other things to do.. owell.
my parents, younger bro and sis went to japan tdy. im starting to miss them already. feels kind of weird to have so little people at home, just me and my kor. but not for long.. soon, on sunday - 8th June, my kor will be going to beijing. and then, i will really be home alone.. )': but i guess i'll go over to my grandma hse to stay la.
in 10 more days, i'll be flying to shanghai. haha. cool right my family. one after another, we're flying here and there. i think within 1 mth, we've been to the airport for abt like so many times... 1st to send my sis to beijing, 2nd to fetch my sis and kor (he went to india), 3rd to send my parents and younger sibs to japan. the 4th time that i go to airport will be when i go to shanghai. and then when i come back on the 20th , it will be the 5th time. followed by the 6th time which is the next day when my kor come back from beijing. HAHAHAHA. crazy hor..
xue'er and taorong's wedding soon!! haha. so happy and excited for them :D
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Friday, May 30, 2008
shanghai trip
just received an email from my lecturer. he says that the shanghai trip date has changed. cos we are not able to get a return ticket on 20th, so we moved the trip forward by 1day. which means.. instead of 16th to 20th june, the trip will be from 15th to 19th june!! and that means.. i won't get to see my family from 5th june alllllll the way till 20th june [we're taking 19th june midnight flight back]!! so long!!!
my family will be coming back from japan on the 15th.. but they will only reach spore in the late afternoon.. while i will be departing from spore on the 15th, 10am in the morning..
owell...
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